Monday, August 20, 2012
Goals Met/Goals Made
The elusive wet suit proved no match for me. The irony, with 86 degree water temperature on our Keys trip, there was no need for it BUT if it proves too small soon, I will consider that NO LOSS :D.
The trip was awesome and although I cannot say I had a work out plan while on vacation we did manage to keep our fitness levels on the upswing just doing the things we enjoy. We stayed in the water either snorkeling or diving every day. When visibility was less than perfect we stayed in the shallows in snorkel mode and when it improved we moved out to dive the reefs. Most was done off of our own boat. This was a work out in itself because gearing up, getting in and out of the water from a 15 foot boat was a challenge. We did pay for one offshore, two tank dive. All of this encouraged Kev to buy a BIGGER boat (about 15 min after we got home)! The 24 footer won't be ready till next year but it will give Kevin things to dream about and an outlet for his creative labor which needs to be fed continuously.
On other days we managed a bike ride out the 7 mile bridge to Pigeon Key and some Key deer encounters that were breathtaking. As well as some island explorations that snagged some wild iguana shots!
Now that we are home again, work outs have shifted into the up gear as we get ready for caving in October and my designs on a sprint triathlon are still alive. I've added yoga as a mandatory once a week as well as riding my horse on a weekly basis. Work sure gets in the way of my plans!
The trip was awesome and although I cannot say I had a work out plan while on vacation we did manage to keep our fitness levels on the upswing just doing the things we enjoy. We stayed in the water either snorkeling or diving every day. When visibility was less than perfect we stayed in the shallows in snorkel mode and when it improved we moved out to dive the reefs. Most was done off of our own boat. This was a work out in itself because gearing up, getting in and out of the water from a 15 foot boat was a challenge. We did pay for one offshore, two tank dive. All of this encouraged Kev to buy a BIGGER boat (about 15 min after we got home)! The 24 footer won't be ready till next year but it will give Kevin things to dream about and an outlet for his creative labor which needs to be fed continuously.
On other days we managed a bike ride out the 7 mile bridge to Pigeon Key and some Key deer encounters that were breathtaking. As well as some island explorations that snagged some wild iguana shots!
Now that we are home again, work outs have shifted into the up gear as we get ready for caving in October and my designs on a sprint triathlon are still alive. I've added yoga as a mandatory once a week as well as riding my horse on a weekly basis. Work sure gets in the way of my plans!
Wednesday, July 25, 2012
Dragging
Dragged myself through work out today. Last weekend's activities left me with more residual soreness than I had anticipated (mostly calf soreness from all the steps), so work outs have been harder than they should have been. They are still getting done, just an effort to push through. Both Kevin and I were of the mindset that vacation started this coming Tuesday night. *sigh* Alas, we realized today that there is an additional week in there to get through and I think that sucked the life out of us both somewhat. On the one hand, I am relieved to have the extra week to prepare, on the other, deflated that I will have to muddle through another week.
I still have the back half of tonight's to finish so off I go.
I still have the back half of tonight's to finish so off I go.
Monday, July 23, 2012
Weekends and Workends
Momentum...it just keeps rolling. Sometimes that is a beautiful thing sometimes not....
The weekend was wonderful. Kevin, the dog and I did 7.34 miles (the .34 was very significant to Kevin ;) through the San Felasco preserve. The tree hammock was nice coverage from the heat but it was still pretty muggy and ticky. Sunday we hit Devil's Millhopper, which is a great sink hole that has an almost waterfall like setting and a step system that is about a tenth of a mile down (and back up.) At the top is a great 1/2 mile dirt path that encircles the sink. A LOT of people use it as a training place running the stair and the path in circuits and so did we. We did not count on the dog quitting on us but she got to the point where she simply would not budge another step unless it was in the direction of the car.
It was great to be able to keep that momentum rolling.
Sadly, other things have their own momentum. My staff keeps me ever exposed to the "next generation." The same generation my daughter is a part of and the sadness of it is not lost on me. I don't want to make this blog a political platform but it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out the world is changing fast. With the "up and coming" generation in charge I cannot help but fear for exactly where that momentum will stop and what will be left in its wake. I am truly fearful for the future, for what will become of them and what will be left of them. They are simply unprepared....for anything. I have never seen a group of people so completely unaware of the world around them. They are spoon fed a vision of the world that is so "generated" for their entertainment they cannot cope with reality. Even sadder, they aren't sure what reality REALLY is.
Enough ranting. My reality tonight consists of exciting things like laundry and paperwork.
The weekend was wonderful. Kevin, the dog and I did 7.34 miles (the .34 was very significant to Kevin ;) through the San Felasco preserve. The tree hammock was nice coverage from the heat but it was still pretty muggy and ticky. Sunday we hit Devil's Millhopper, which is a great sink hole that has an almost waterfall like setting and a step system that is about a tenth of a mile down (and back up.) At the top is a great 1/2 mile dirt path that encircles the sink. A LOT of people use it as a training place running the stair and the path in circuits and so did we. We did not count on the dog quitting on us but she got to the point where she simply would not budge another step unless it was in the direction of the car.
It was great to be able to keep that momentum rolling.
Sadly, other things have their own momentum. My staff keeps me ever exposed to the "next generation." The same generation my daughter is a part of and the sadness of it is not lost on me. I don't want to make this blog a political platform but it doesn't take a rocket scientist to figure out the world is changing fast. With the "up and coming" generation in charge I cannot help but fear for exactly where that momentum will stop and what will be left in its wake. I am truly fearful for the future, for what will become of them and what will be left of them. They are simply unprepared....for anything. I have never seen a group of people so completely unaware of the world around them. They are spoon fed a vision of the world that is so "generated" for their entertainment they cannot cope with reality. Even sadder, they aren't sure what reality REALLY is.
Enough ranting. My reality tonight consists of exciting things like laundry and paperwork.
Wednesday, July 18, 2012
The Ass Most Kicked
I do not think my "ass" could feel much more kicked than it does right now. With increased intensity comes increased reward...and if we are honest; increased suffering. This is not a complaint mind you, merely a recognition of the masochistic side of my nature. I am beat up and LOVING it! A thunder storm was rolling in tonight about midrun. The rain and breezes are a pleasant side effect in our Florida heat and humidity but I am not a fan of harsh lightning so I had to shorten a little. It wasn't until I walked in the door that I realized how truly sore I am. Even the dog gets a pass on the cool down walk tonight.
I've been feeling a lot of gratitude this week. Work is not quite so insane, which is season appropriate and the break has allowed me to not only catch up, but back up and take stock in more ways than the literal. I am so pleased with the job change, now a year in. I have a wonderful staff and they make me look good every day. The job change was a pensive one and it has paid off on so many levels. I am in the healthiest and most positive relationship I have ever had and the only regret therein is that I did not know that was possible 30 years ago! I have less to worry about than I have ever had in my entire life. My 19 year old daughter is a bit of a mess BUT in truth her direction is more in her own hands than my own and even I recognize the need to let her make her own way.
Goals continue to trudge forward....more things gathered up and laundered for consignment and additional items on ebay. Each day brings us closer to vacation and closer to goals being met. Hump day done...ass kicked. :)
I've been feeling a lot of gratitude this week. Work is not quite so insane, which is season appropriate and the break has allowed me to not only catch up, but back up and take stock in more ways than the literal. I am so pleased with the job change, now a year in. I have a wonderful staff and they make me look good every day. The job change was a pensive one and it has paid off on so many levels. I am in the healthiest and most positive relationship I have ever had and the only regret therein is that I did not know that was possible 30 years ago! I have less to worry about than I have ever had in my entire life. My 19 year old daughter is a bit of a mess BUT in truth her direction is more in her own hands than my own and even I recognize the need to let her make her own way.
Goals continue to trudge forward....more things gathered up and laundered for consignment and additional items on ebay. Each day brings us closer to vacation and closer to goals being met. Hump day done...ass kicked. :)
Tuesday, July 17, 2012
Woot Woot!!
As promised, weigh in was yesterday with SIX pounds down!! Of course, I'm not so unrealistic as to expect that some of that was water and will be back but it felt good in any case. I have been really keen on watching what I eat (which I'm almost never good at) and have kicked work outs way the hell up. The dog is benefiting too, as she is now the catalyst for my cool downs which are much longer walks then I would usually persist in after a run (2-4 miles) and I think that has extended my overall work out time a lot increasing my burn rate.
My body is remembering marathon training and what it feels like to really PUSH it and not just flop through a mandatory work out. My body and my MIND are really liking it again. Endorphins are flowing, just have to keep the momentum rolling. 3 more weeks to dive trip in the Keys and 1st week in October for the annual TAG event. I should be feeling REALLY good about the latter!
Wishing AH HA moments to all who read! Rock on people, PEACE OUT!
My body is remembering marathon training and what it feels like to really PUSH it and not just flop through a mandatory work out. My body and my MIND are really liking it again. Endorphins are flowing, just have to keep the momentum rolling. 3 more weeks to dive trip in the Keys and 1st week in October for the annual TAG event. I should be feeling REALLY good about the latter!
Wishing AH HA moments to all who read! Rock on people, PEACE OUT!
Thursday, July 12, 2012
Going The Distance
I feel about like a ball rolling careening down a hill but progress has been made! More "Junk" is posted on Ebay, got a nice ride in on my horse this morning and have logged a lot of running miles this week. Today has been catch up day!
My dog has been suffering severe separation anxiety. The fireworks and my daughter being less present at the house have been contributing factors. I put her on Prozac this week and have opted to take her for long walks as my cool down post running. Hopefully, it will benefit us both. I hate to think I might have to just start taking the Prozac myself to maintain some sense of sanity! I'm not a fan of anxiety drugs BUT I doubt she will have suicidal thoughts on it and I don't think her quality of life is too great without some sort of intervention.
Tonight is muscle work (bleck). On I roll. The food thing has come together this week and I see a huge improvement by finally committing to going all organic. Roll on me....
My dog has been suffering severe separation anxiety. The fireworks and my daughter being less present at the house have been contributing factors. I put her on Prozac this week and have opted to take her for long walks as my cool down post running. Hopefully, it will benefit us both. I hate to think I might have to just start taking the Prozac myself to maintain some sense of sanity! I'm not a fan of anxiety drugs BUT I doubt she will have suicidal thoughts on it and I don't think her quality of life is too great without some sort of intervention.
Tonight is muscle work (bleck). On I roll. The food thing has come together this week and I see a huge improvement by finally committing to going all organic. Roll on me....
Tuesday, July 10, 2012
AH HA Moments...
Everyone who has ever wanted to lose weight or get fit has either marked them as a turning point or craved them without satisfaction. I had a much craved for one this weekend.
Still tying up the loose ends on our dive trip we threw all our gear on and jumped into a friend's pool to test buoyancy and weight ratios considering the new gear and time since our last dive(s). The gear was great and all went well until we stopped by the dive shop to pick up a few items. While there I decided to try on a wetsuit for purchase. I was mortified to find I couldn't fit into anywhere near the size I thought I should be. Sadly, this realization came when I tried on a suit two sizes LARGER than my last dive called for.
Needless to say, I've had no trouble at all upping the anty on my workout efforts and I got A LOT more stringent on the food intake. I'm counting this as a blessing. It was much like being kicked i the head and it was a much needed and long overdue blow. Monday logged a good run (in too hot weather) followed by mowing the lawn (sue me, that counts as a work out.=). Tonight, an hour long bike ride (in a higher than average gear) followed by toning work. Back to the tight eating rules. My latte's must be on the forbidden list until further notice and no carbs after noon either! This includes the fact that my "accepted carb" list got extremely short. Sadly, I only truly enjoy crappy carbs :(.
I have been dribbling weight off but my efforts have been lackadaisical at best. Monday coming is the first REAL weigh in and its time to TRY like I mean it. Not JUST fitness, but WEIGHT LOSS TOO!! Damn it man did that ever suck!!! I REFUSE to buy a wetsuit that size unless I plan to sleep in to lose water weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Still tying up the loose ends on our dive trip we threw all our gear on and jumped into a friend's pool to test buoyancy and weight ratios considering the new gear and time since our last dive(s). The gear was great and all went well until we stopped by the dive shop to pick up a few items. While there I decided to try on a wetsuit for purchase. I was mortified to find I couldn't fit into anywhere near the size I thought I should be. Sadly, this realization came when I tried on a suit two sizes LARGER than my last dive called for.
Needless to say, I've had no trouble at all upping the anty on my workout efforts and I got A LOT more stringent on the food intake. I'm counting this as a blessing. It was much like being kicked i the head and it was a much needed and long overdue blow. Monday logged a good run (in too hot weather) followed by mowing the lawn (sue me, that counts as a work out.=). Tonight, an hour long bike ride (in a higher than average gear) followed by toning work. Back to the tight eating rules. My latte's must be on the forbidden list until further notice and no carbs after noon either! This includes the fact that my "accepted carb" list got extremely short. Sadly, I only truly enjoy crappy carbs :(.
I have been dribbling weight off but my efforts have been lackadaisical at best. Monday coming is the first REAL weigh in and its time to TRY like I mean it. Not JUST fitness, but WEIGHT LOSS TOO!! Damn it man did that ever suck!!! I REFUSE to buy a wetsuit that size unless I plan to sleep in to lose water weight!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, July 5, 2012
Weekends and Weekdays
It has taken me a few futile tries to get back here and now finally, I sit. Kevin finished the re-furb on the power boat and brought it down from our Northern satellite location so that we might utilize it here on the Indian River. As all of his undertakings are, it was a huge success. It provided a nice break from my De-cluttering efforts to get out on the water and procure a minor sun burn, and practice catch and release fishing. Ahem, important to note, I would not be so forgiving if the fish we'd caught had been worth keeping but a dozen channel catfish and a couple of stingrays can keep their freedom!
Kevin again surprised me with a mid week turn around for our anniversary, showing up with a bouquet of roses before the end of my work day (early fearing I might have plotted similar and we'd both be in the opposite household on the day of destiny). July 3rd marked the end of the best year of my life and hopefully, the beginning of many more.
Tomorrow, I load the car for my fair share at turnaround to head his way with boxes for the consignment shop in tow. I have also managed to keep auctions on other miscellaneous junk on ebay to further clear out the dreaded junk which has accumulated in every closet of my abode.
A two mile run tonite along the river was a struggle in the humidity but in spite of all odds I have accomplished much. This week is cobweb attack weekend at Kevin's....away we go :)
Kevin again surprised me with a mid week turn around for our anniversary, showing up with a bouquet of roses before the end of my work day (early fearing I might have plotted similar and we'd both be in the opposite household on the day of destiny). July 3rd marked the end of the best year of my life and hopefully, the beginning of many more.
Tomorrow, I load the car for my fair share at turnaround to head his way with boxes for the consignment shop in tow. I have also managed to keep auctions on other miscellaneous junk on ebay to further clear out the dreaded junk which has accumulated in every closet of my abode.
A two mile run tonite along the river was a struggle in the humidity but in spite of all odds I have accomplished much. This week is cobweb attack weekend at Kevin's....away we go :)
Wednesday, June 27, 2012
Sun Up at Sundown
Another great day! The sun came out for the first time this week. Granted it was at sunset but it was like a wink from an old friend.
A great work out at the gym; I sadly, showed no faith in aforementioned sun and opted for the dreadmill. Pushed some weight as well which I never enjoy but felt good for having done. I've toted boxes home for the further consolidation of junk and am about to re-heat some of last night's salmon and make some zucchini bread. Peace Out.
A great work out at the gym; I sadly, showed no faith in aforementioned sun and opted for the dreadmill. Pushed some weight as well which I never enjoy but felt good for having done. I've toted boxes home for the further consolidation of junk and am about to re-heat some of last night's salmon and make some zucchini bread. Peace Out.
Tuesday, June 26, 2012
Goal Ticker
Wow, got A LOT of junk cleaned out for the tack consignment shop. Funny how dragging out all the old show clothes brought back memories of that era of life. It mounted to a ton of laundry as it has all been stored away and needs freshening up. I'm actually looking forward to getting it all out of here. I have been doing some riding but I'm not considering a show ring return. Even without showing you always tend to have gear needs in the horse game. If it doesn't return any money it is still removing clutter and if it does then I am sure I can spend it out on things I have a more immediate need for (or no need for at all!).
Also listed some items on ebay in the interest of MORE clean out. I am a minimalist trapped in the body of a clutterbug!! I think my parents instilled in me too much post depression mentality so I tend to stock up and store way too much stuff. I keep trying to remember how many creative pursuits I can chase if I am not constantly rearranging junk!
In keeping with the satisfaction of goals, I also managed a good healthy pile of stuff from the grocery store and two new recipes to try. It is so much more time consuming to attempt to stay organic and avoid patronizing companies whose practices I find "unsavory." Sadly, it brings to light just how much our food supply is monopolized by people who probably are better qualified to traffic human waste! That is a rant I won't touch today ;)
I dodged rain drops for a nice work out. The rain makes the world dismal but the green will be much appreciated when it clears off. It offers some hope to the end of a much sadder drought so I won't complain about it too much. The rest of the week's work outs are laid out in tune with my training plan. It is sooo hard to get mounted up after too long a break and too much complacency.
My neighbors kindly mowed my front yard over the weekend (I'm having trouble keeping up with the rain) so I hope to make them a loaf of zucchini bread tomorrow as a thank you AND mow my yard again as a show of good faith!
Most of my weeks are just a counting of wake ups between the time when Ying meets Yang and Kevin and I are together again. It is his turn to drive this weekend and he had planned to bring the boat down here for us to throw in on the inter coastal. If it stops raining that would be nice. We had wanted to work out the bugs in the boat remodel and then do some benign practicing getting in and out of it with dive gear on before the Keys trip in August. I will still have a few gear pieces to add on that note, too! Gloves and gear bags are all that is on that list. Soon as that adventure is done we will be looking to the TAG Fall Cave In scheduled for October. For that he plans to build us a teardrop trailer making camping just that one step more comfortable and a place for all our caving/rappelling gear to "live" and be ready on a moment's notice. That man loves to build!
Also listed some items on ebay in the interest of MORE clean out. I am a minimalist trapped in the body of a clutterbug!! I think my parents instilled in me too much post depression mentality so I tend to stock up and store way too much stuff. I keep trying to remember how many creative pursuits I can chase if I am not constantly rearranging junk!
In keeping with the satisfaction of goals, I also managed a good healthy pile of stuff from the grocery store and two new recipes to try. It is so much more time consuming to attempt to stay organic and avoid patronizing companies whose practices I find "unsavory." Sadly, it brings to light just how much our food supply is monopolized by people who probably are better qualified to traffic human waste! That is a rant I won't touch today ;)
I dodged rain drops for a nice work out. The rain makes the world dismal but the green will be much appreciated when it clears off. It offers some hope to the end of a much sadder drought so I won't complain about it too much. The rest of the week's work outs are laid out in tune with my training plan. It is sooo hard to get mounted up after too long a break and too much complacency.
My neighbors kindly mowed my front yard over the weekend (I'm having trouble keeping up with the rain) so I hope to make them a loaf of zucchini bread tomorrow as a thank you AND mow my yard again as a show of good faith!
Most of my weeks are just a counting of wake ups between the time when Ying meets Yang and Kevin and I are together again. It is his turn to drive this weekend and he had planned to bring the boat down here for us to throw in on the inter coastal. If it stops raining that would be nice. We had wanted to work out the bugs in the boat remodel and then do some benign practicing getting in and out of it with dive gear on before the Keys trip in August. I will still have a few gear pieces to add on that note, too! Gloves and gear bags are all that is on that list. Soon as that adventure is done we will be looking to the TAG Fall Cave In scheduled for October. For that he plans to build us a teardrop trailer making camping just that one step more comfortable and a place for all our caving/rappelling gear to "live" and be ready on a moment's notice. That man loves to build!
Monday, June 25, 2012
GOAL TICKER
Some things on the agenda for this week (following today, which I intend to be fairly sluggish)!
1. Clean out and wash a portion of the old riding gear to take in to a tack shop for consignment.
2. Organize some things at the farm.
3. Fill one box of junk destined either for Goodwill, or an upcoming yard sale.
4. Define a training plan for the week.
5. Grocery store to purchase some ingredients for some new recipes breaking up the monotony of dietary consumption too long endured.
1. Clean out and wash a portion of the old riding gear to take in to a tack shop for consignment.
2. Organize some things at the farm.
3. Fill one box of junk destined either for Goodwill, or an upcoming yard sale.
4. Define a training plan for the week.
5. Grocery store to purchase some ingredients for some new recipes breaking up the monotony of dietary consumption too long endured.
Monday
It was both a productive and relaxing weekend but Monday hasn't followed suit. The torrential rain of tropical storm Debby bought some R & R time over the weekend, forcing us inside but for the beginning of a new week its nothing short of depressing. As is our custom on my weekends off, I traveled the 140 miles north to the home of my other half. On weekends when I work he makes the journey here. For both of us, Monday carries with it a certain amount of dread and post "parting" depression but the simple fact is that our separate home lifestyle is the most sensible position for the time being. Departing later than I should have, making the trip on hazardous roads and too little rest coupled with too much reflection have not made for an ideal start to the week.
Having completed the mandatory tasks necessary at work, I've opted to move my obligations to the house for the day and try to muster some recovery and rebound. An upset stomach on top of it all kind of negated the possibility of remaining at the office as my staff was suspicios I might be the carrier of some toxic contagion. In truth, I think I am merely run down and stretched out.
Lately I've felt that I am on the cusp of an explosion. I'm not sure of what nature. I know it is time to clean out the clutter in my life on many levels, some virtual, some tangible. Perhaps creativity can follow.
Having completed the mandatory tasks necessary at work, I've opted to move my obligations to the house for the day and try to muster some recovery and rebound. An upset stomach on top of it all kind of negated the possibility of remaining at the office as my staff was suspicios I might be the carrier of some toxic contagion. In truth, I think I am merely run down and stretched out.
Lately I've felt that I am on the cusp of an explosion. I'm not sure of what nature. I know it is time to clean out the clutter in my life on many levels, some virtual, some tangible. Perhaps creativity can follow.
Thursday, June 21, 2012
Watching Pain
Today was a hard day. One of my staff, a young girl of 22 or so, was abandoned by her boyfriend of 4 years. He left her saying he needed to walk away to think but when she went inside she found that he had already removed 99% of his belongings from their shared dwelling. Her suffering was difficult to endure.
She spent her lunch hour getting her hair cut and highlighted to run home and meet him as he promised to come by this evening to "talk" with her. I believe he only told her this to allow himself a clean exit in the first place...the promise of her chance. The chances are slim that he showed and the chances that this devastated her further are quite great.
One has to wonder...having experienced what I have and knowing what I know; which is worse? Calculating the odds as I do and facing the actual reality that in 6 months time she will likely look back upon this as a door opening moment which although painful, changed her life, OR having the hope that she has? The only door she sees is a magical one. Through this door all the pain instantly disappears and all her dreams come true. The sad fact is that this door probably doesn't exist. The REAL door is one which involves some more pain, some hard realizations and probably some gained strength she didn't know she had. It is a far off door and seems very less real than her magical one.
This wasn't what I intended to write about today and yet it was so CLOSE to a place I've been and at the same time a million miles away. I worry about her sanity and her fragile state but I also know that to take away this pain forfeits her chance to learn and grow. Hope. It is where she lives now and hope in and of itself is a beautiful thing. My perspective doesn't allow me that on her behalf in this moment. I believe her hopes are indeed quite hopeless. Her hope lies in the things she cannot perceive just yet. I hope she will soon.
She spent her lunch hour getting her hair cut and highlighted to run home and meet him as he promised to come by this evening to "talk" with her. I believe he only told her this to allow himself a clean exit in the first place...the promise of her chance. The chances are slim that he showed and the chances that this devastated her further are quite great.
One has to wonder...having experienced what I have and knowing what I know; which is worse? Calculating the odds as I do and facing the actual reality that in 6 months time she will likely look back upon this as a door opening moment which although painful, changed her life, OR having the hope that she has? The only door she sees is a magical one. Through this door all the pain instantly disappears and all her dreams come true. The sad fact is that this door probably doesn't exist. The REAL door is one which involves some more pain, some hard realizations and probably some gained strength she didn't know she had. It is a far off door and seems very less real than her magical one.
This wasn't what I intended to write about today and yet it was so CLOSE to a place I've been and at the same time a million miles away. I worry about her sanity and her fragile state but I also know that to take away this pain forfeits her chance to learn and grow. Hope. It is where she lives now and hope in and of itself is a beautiful thing. My perspective doesn't allow me that on her behalf in this moment. I believe her hopes are indeed quite hopeless. Her hope lies in the things she cannot perceive just yet. I hope she will soon.
Wednesday, June 20, 2012
GOAL TRUDGE
GOAL LIST: 4 miles at 10% grade. The weather forced me to the dreadmill but the odds dictated I should go home and forget it...so its a victory.
Hump Day
My official job title is "Manager." Realistically, my job title should be "Babysitter." I have come to believe, as my experience level at herding people mounts, that people tend to suffer from an extensive education. It seems that the more education a person accumulates the more childish and immovable they become. When I was growing up, an extensive education especially one which earned the title of Doctor or more, was the mark of patience, fortitude and hard work. These were people capable of investing in both the future and themselves. Now it seems to be a mark of "entitlement." The new generation of the highly educated presents itself to me largely as a group of Prima Donnas with a very poor work ethic and an inability to adapt or express flexibility of any nature. I find it disturbing and frustrating.
Although I have always sought and deepened my educational level, I have always done so on a level grounded in personal enrichment. Perhaps many would consider this a "cop out," as I have obtained a million credits and no degree. I consider myself neither highly educated nor particularly worldly but in the same breath I have often battered myself for not having procured the documentation necessary to proclaim myself any sort of honored state. I'm fairly literate and possess a reasonable quantity of common sense and thankfully that has kept food on my table throughout my life. I once thought less of myself for failing to complete my education in some glorious crescendo...these days I am grateful not to have been poisoned for my efforts. I can "wing it" when I have to and don't feel the need to demand anyone jump through hoops or bend the world to my whimsy in some sacrificial homage to all that I am.
When I titled this blog this was something of what I had in mind. I have shared much discussion with a person close to me centering around, "What is wrong with the world." Of course, we are passing time and hoping for understanding but the facts are inescapable. A mutant defined infers a deformity or wildness, something outside the norm. What used to be a mutant vs what is today seems to be where the change lies. Today's mutants have integrity. Their word means something. They have a work ethic and they posses empathy for the people (and animals) around them. They don't just watch movies about honor, they know what it IS and want to have it. This used to be what everyone strives to be; strives to have. Today it is rare. It is uncommon.
I'm not perfect, in fact far from it. Apparently, however, I am A MUTANT, and ironically, it seems to cause me a good deal more suffering on a personal level than the average human endures. If you are also, then you are one of a growing few and I am deeply glad you are out there!!
Although I have always sought and deepened my educational level, I have always done so on a level grounded in personal enrichment. Perhaps many would consider this a "cop out," as I have obtained a million credits and no degree. I consider myself neither highly educated nor particularly worldly but in the same breath I have often battered myself for not having procured the documentation necessary to proclaim myself any sort of honored state. I'm fairly literate and possess a reasonable quantity of common sense and thankfully that has kept food on my table throughout my life. I once thought less of myself for failing to complete my education in some glorious crescendo...these days I am grateful not to have been poisoned for my efforts. I can "wing it" when I have to and don't feel the need to demand anyone jump through hoops or bend the world to my whimsy in some sacrificial homage to all that I am.
When I titled this blog this was something of what I had in mind. I have shared much discussion with a person close to me centering around, "What is wrong with the world." Of course, we are passing time and hoping for understanding but the facts are inescapable. A mutant defined infers a deformity or wildness, something outside the norm. What used to be a mutant vs what is today seems to be where the change lies. Today's mutants have integrity. Their word means something. They have a work ethic and they posses empathy for the people (and animals) around them. They don't just watch movies about honor, they know what it IS and want to have it. This used to be what everyone strives to be; strives to have. Today it is rare. It is uncommon.
I'm not perfect, in fact far from it. Apparently, however, I am A MUTANT, and ironically, it seems to cause me a good deal more suffering on a personal level than the average human endures. If you are also, then you are one of a growing few and I am deeply glad you are out there!!
Tuesday, June 19, 2012
The goal list includes creating a goal list!! I will start with ONE (they are too numerous to count right now).
1. August marks Kevin's birthday and a dive trip to the Keys. A few days before is our first annual work clean up of a local river. I'd like to straighten out this body I have been living in prior. this gives me about a month and a half. Two years ago I was running a marathon. In between, life became a marathon. Time to force an "ah ha" moment and make the fitness plan come together.
1. August marks Kevin's birthday and a dive trip to the Keys. A few days before is our first annual work clean up of a local river. I'd like to straighten out this body I have been living in prior. this gives me about a month and a half. Two years ago I was running a marathon. In between, life became a marathon. Time to force an "ah ha" moment and make the fitness plan come together.
My life is a full and active place. After too many years of too much effort I have found a place of happy contemplation. In spite of all the obstacles I have conquered, I find myself distracted and "scattered." This is the time of my life when I truly have it all but it is important not to lose sight of the things yet left to achieve. I have found my track obscured by my own pleasant distractions. So, its time to set some goals and refine the track a bit. I hope to use this as a place to organize the scatter, put things in perspective and enjoy gratitude without becoming complacent!! There are so many adventures yet to unfold. I don't want to lose sight of my prize. The Journey :)
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